I want to live 

I want to live, REALLY live.
I want to feel agonizing pain,
And ecstasy,
Joy,
Despair,
Love

I want to run free, into the wind,
a cold wind,
in the dark,
infinite spongey ground,
wearing nothing but a white sheet around my waist.

I want to be vulnerable,
helpless, even;
Hit with lightning,
sung to by the stars.

I want to dangle in the air,
held up,
alone.
But still, miserably I wait.